officially an adult.

i'm back in singapore, work has begun.
hmm what can i say? working life has been liberating, but exhausting.
i wonder how people can do this their whole lives.
top it all off, the travelling time between home and work has been sooo draggy and annoying.
it's ok, it'll be over soon.

i'm on call today, fingers crossed.
went for Mala's wedding yesterday with mum. beautiful wedding...but is it just me, or is EVERYONE getting married/having kids these days??
i guess im just in that age group where the ppl i know are of marriagable age.
but still.
i feel like a freak for being unmarried.
cannot cannot.
can't fall prey to peer pressure.
comfort myself by thinking marriage is the beginning of the end.
it is isn't it!? what else is there after marriage but the decline of yr looks, start of huge financial burdens and fights which usually result in divorce or affairs.

which is just as well, cause looks like im not getting married anytime soon.
:(
wait long long.
jeevan's NS feels like it's dragging forever.
getting sooo fed up.
our 2nd anniversary next wednesday.
and yup ill prolly wont be able to meet him.
what's new.

moving on, talking bout cats..
im still torn between keeping Puma and giving her up for adoption.
we've all become attached to her, but..there are so many other kittens out there to save.
if i keep her, that's it.
daddy's gonna throw sumone out if i bring another one home to rescue.
sigh.
im gonna join the cat welfare society soon..
alot of cats that need financial assistance for their medical bills..
sigh
breaks my heart to hear stories of injured cats..

must keep positive.

ok me gonna sleep again.
till next time...

45 hours left.

yup you read that right....45 hours left till i fly off.
clinicals are done, along with all the assignments...
feedback was fantastic, AND we got our results back..
and i'm more than happy.
straight distinctions.
thank you God!
now i KNOW you got some fantastic angel watching over me...
cause despite all my hurdles, all my emotional troubles..
you always seem to get me landing on my feet with a lil curtsey.
i don't know what i've done to deserve all this but THANK YOU!!

so i guess this is it.
one year has come and gone.
and the experience has been nothing but amazing..
i am so so thankful for the whole opportunity,
all the friends i've made..
and the priceless changes it's made on me and my perceptions.

right now..these last hours are like the worst!!
cause my heart just wants to leap out with joy and anticipation at going home.
everytime i see or hear a plane fly overhead, i cant help but think...
that will be me in it soon.
coming home to everyone i love.

and i .can't.wait.

almost there.

so much has happened since i last blogged..
i got a touch of swine flu, got me down and out for a week..
had quite the experience at the emergency department.
just before that happened, michael jackson died.
sadness.
oh well, i believe he's in a better place now,
but thanks for all the memories!!
growing up all i listened to was michael jackson and the beegees!
i still rmbr sis dislocating her patella while dancing to staying alive.
HAHAHAHA!!!

nine days left!! i can't wait to be back home.
i'm getting a teeny bit bored here..plus i started missing home so so much
when i fell sick.
i kept thinking, what would mum do now?
and i tried my best to take care of myself like mum would.
i rmbr she would always get me out of bed to have a shower and wash my hair to get the heat out..
i still rmbr that lil malay nursery rhyme or wat-chama-call-it she would recite
as she washes my hair.
haha..
eat hot rice!!
drink cough syrup without drinking water immediately afterwards..
sunning my pillows..
miss you mummy.
it really is a drag being all alone when you're sick.
i missed everyone, even jeevan.
i rmbr around the time i first met him, i fell really sick and was vomitting the whole night.
he called me at 12 midnight to check on me and i realized he was actually outside my house!
he had cycled all the way to my place just to see me at the window..
cho chweet.
nobody here to do that for me now.
haha..
something's wrong somewhere if i did though!
though he is all grumpy and serious these days, reckon it's cause of stress in camp..
he still sounds like the same ol jeevan once in a while..
a bit of bad news though, he can't take leave on the day i'm coming back!!!
so he's gonna have to sneak out of camp and make sure he's around the east area just
in case he needs to dart back into tekong.
i feel so so bad for leaving my luggage with daddy n mummy and just going off with jeevan..
but what to do.
we will probably spend the night having dinner or sitting at the beach catching up on everything.
honestly can't wait for him to ORD.
argh.

see you in 9 days singapore!

count-o-down

i find it odd to be counting down to the day im going back..
cause honestly, i really don't know what i'm looking forward to!
i've grown to appreciate my independence, the weather here, the (mostly) friendly faces,
how people judge you by yr capabilities not yr looks...it's all just so different from singapore.
i never got any praise whatsoever from teachers back home, cause they were just interested in those kids who got straight As constantly.
no one really cut me some slack.
but here..after the feedback i got for my research assignment, ive never felt better about myself and my work.although it WAS a group work, honestly it was mostly mine and mike's work, and my idea AND research too. so there.
and just cause it makes me feel THAT good, i shall post it up here to read it again and again.

You have presented a carefully planned research proposal demonstrating an understanding of the process of research planning. Your group should be congratulated on the quality of this submission. It demonstrates a clear understanding of the aims of the assessment.

weeee....

i could see myself working and living here.even the work environment is heaps different.i hated clinicals back in singapore.. most radiographers were just out to get you out of their way and as a student it was best to be seen not heard.

and dont touch anything.

haha..
but after 2 weeks of my placements here..

im enjoying myself thoroughly.
even though im a student, they treat me as an equal and respect my work.
i do my own critique and evaluation of the x-rays ive done, and i get praise where it's due.even the doctors come up and introduce themselves to me.
and from what ive heard from other classmates on placements elsewhere, it's pretty much the same everywhere here!
oh well, guess i gotta go back and serve my bond.
but i shall be back!

and to add to it all, jeevan is all MIA.
its been weeks (ok maybe just a week) since ive heard from him
but he's been quite dodgy since being a sergeant. the frequency of his calls etc just got less and less till poof. he disappears completely. i was quite upset bout a month back, and it affected me greatly...but now ive just gotten used to it.
out of sight out of mind, and im really just concentrating on the simple pleasures here.
it's hard not to get paranoid and imagine the worst things..
but i'll give him the benefit of the doubt.
and we'll see what happens.

but of course..there's mummy and daddy, the kitties...and kakak.
gotta remember to get her and sunder some stuff.
oh ya! happy father's day again daddy!
sorry i'm not there, and won't be there for yr birthday too...
but not to worry, ill be back soon enough!

27 days left.

alamak.

just found out today my dad reads my blog!!
hahha...
must censor already.
bleep bleeep bleeeeep.
anyways, end of second week of clinicals!!yay!
4 more weeks till im home.i need to hug my cats....
i walked to canada bay during lunch time today, and sat by the water..
absolutely gorgeous.
there was this spoon-billed bird thingy there by the water just grooming himself.
soooo peaceful.
shall upload photos someday.
and to make it all better, this dog just came out of nowhere and sat with me!
lol..
it made my day.

i saw a sweet heart warming scene during clinicals couple of days back.
this old couple came in, and the husband had a foot xray done.
turns out from the xrays, he fractured the base of one of his metatarsals..and when we told his wife, her face just fell.
i could just see how worried she was, though honestly the fracture was not a big deal.
then while we were doing some paperwork for them at the counter,
the wife made a lil jibe at him, since he had hurt his foot while walking to the pub one night when she had told him not to since it was dark.
but noooo do guys listen? haha..
and she went on bout how stubborn men were, but you could see underneath it how much they adored each other.
it was just sweet to see a couple grow old together, and see how that love becomes something different, but all the more deeper.
and with millions of divorces happening, it's nice to see the rare occurences of real love.
oooh well.

the housemates are in the midst of their exams, stress levels are at an all time high
and hence we are having multiple strange outbursts of side splitting laughter, making fun of the most random things. haha..
poor things.
i understand the exam pain.
thank god mine is overr!!
and i expect to do quite okay, fingers crossed.

swine flu updates!
just over 2000 confirmed cases of swine flu in australia!
and first death today.
and all the passengers on a Qantas plane to shanghai are quarantined cause one of them has swine flu!
oh man i hope and pray i'll reach singapore with no hiccups.
with the rising numbers, im getting more and more paranoid everytime someone around me coughs and sneezes..
especially at clinicals, while doing chest x-rays for patients with BAD coughs.
eurgh.

next up on my list: whale watching and a bit of fun at Star City...
hehhe....
wish me luck, who knows might win some money!

nomadic

okay updates updates!
moved out of guildford, lugged all my stuff plus more, into a maxi cab one rainy afternoon
and off i was to sobia, azi and pei's apartment in auburn.
was a tad bit upset when i left though, just seemed to me that i was quite alone and not one housemate actually cared? but meh. that's life i guess. ppl move on, find better friends. nothing anyone can do about it.
it's been a little over a week of me staying here and it's been nothing but quite wonderful.
the girls have been so accomodating, kind and caring it makes me wanna cry.
friends like these make you wonder.. just how nice can a person get!?
been out and about with em, had dinner at meat and wine co last sat and a tad of late night celebrations as well.
went shopping with azi at paramatta..bought heaps of stuff for myself! weee.....
watched movies with em at home, talking till late at night...
the night of the bad fog, we just grabbed our jackets and headed out into the darkness, exploring auburn giggling and doing crazy stuff..
i can only imagine things will get wilder once their exams are over! lol..
am done with one week of clinicals, 5 more weeks to go!
the clinic i'm posted to is very pleasant and easy going, tad boring though when things get quiet.
the radiographers Con, Joanne, Lori, Jo, Lavy are all super nice, and the area Five Dock is quite pretty!
am gonna explore the nearby Canada Bay during one of next week's lunch breaks. but the weather!! gosh it's just getting colder with each day! i step out each morning with my breath steaming up and my fingers frozen!
oh! bumped into Gau at burwood on thursday night and did a bit of shopping...was so good to see her since adelaide!! then we bumped into my fav man..warren reed! haha..he still looks as yummy as ever.
am still quite torn between just staying here in auburn the whole 5 weeks, or to move to Petersham.
pros and cons to both, but im leaning more towards the former..cause it's just a nice feeling to come home to friendly faces who care.
big grin.
the only stuff on my mind now is... where else can i go for shopping? hmm...
maybe will do dat tmr with dearie rachel.
gonna head to her place tmr morning with some chocolate ganache that i baked yesterday..
yummylicious.
life is good.
chocolate and love makes it better.

if i were like you..

Pull up your pants

(Just Like Em')

Take out the trash

(Just Like Em')

getting ya cash like em'

Fast like em'

Girl you outta act like ya dig

(What I'm talkin' bout')

Security codes on everything

Vibrate so your phone don't ever ring

Joint Account

And another one he don't know about

Wish we could switch up the roles

And I could be that...

Tell you I love you

But when you call I never get back

Would you ask them questions like me?...

Like where you be at?
Cause I'm out 4 in the morning
On the corner rolling
Doing my own thing

What if I?...

Had a thing on the side?

Made ya cry?

Would the rules change up?...

Or would they still apply?...

If I played you like a toy?...

Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can't be getting mad!

What You Mad?

Can't Handle that

Girl go head and be...

Just Like Em'

Go run the streets

Just Like Em'

come home late say sleep like em'

Creep like em'

Front with ya friends

Act hard when you're with em' like em'

Keep a straight face when ya tell a lie

Always keep an Anti-alibi

Keep Him In The Dark

What he don't know won't break his heart....