dance baby dance..

i think i will be joining dance classes here in sydney..either that or horseriding.
i don't know have not made up my mind.
but dancing sounds great.
away from the typical singapore dance studios atmosphere...
i just dont like it.
hopefully things in sydney are different.

yesterday we went to send mak long off to the airport...do a bit of shopping, relax at sans souci beach and have ice cream, and then bake cupcakes with the kids!
it was fun seeing their enthusiasm in sprinkling.. no pouring, the decorations on the lil cupcakes.
then we played a lil Wii..
by the end of it me and aisyah were like...how does auntie nora do it.
so this is what having kids is like.
speaking of which, the past weeks with auntie nora have been chock full of laughs and fun.
we've grown quite close, esp since auntie nora and my mum became best friends overnight.
learnt alot of stuffs from her.
hehe... okay no details.
i'll miss her alot now that school is starting for the boys.
it'll just be me and aisyah..grooming ourselves at home. as usual.

aisyah's cousins will be leaving for singapore tmr..
but not before sushi night!
which is happening right now as i type..
i just bailed out quickly cause i'm so full already plus the mozzies outside are attacking me..
weather tmr estimated to be 39 degrees. dammit.
i think ill just walk around naked. or stay in the shower.

hopefully jeevan gets to visit me in April..
would be so fun!
sigh. dream and hope and wish.
until then.. i have brisbane melbourne vacation to look forward to,
australia day, swimming at audi's place...what else?
oh yea dance!
hehehe...

scariness.

i went for the Rocks Ghost tour with aisyah, her two cousins, audi and auntie nora the other day.
i wouldn't say it was scary, but it was an experience nonetheless.
but!
when we reached this particular place, i passed by a house that caught my attention for some reason.
and it freaked me out.
so i told aisyah's cousin, who had been snapping away with his SLR camera to take some shots of the house. who knows right, there might be some scary stuff that appear in the pictures.
but as soon as he tried to, the camera would not shoot for some mysterious reason.
it was scary!
and the moment he turned his camera away to shoot other stuff, the camera worked perfectly....
ponder ponder..
then afterwards we went for drinks at the sydney harbour view hotel pub..and headed home. audi followed us back and stayed the night, but not before hanging out in my room talking till like 2 am with aisyah...was nice to catch up with an old housemate!
beep beep bop bop..
okay random sounds.

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other than that, life here has been uneventful other than the DAMN hot weather. im being BAKED.
aisyah's mak long is going back to singapore tmr, she's more than relieved i think!
hahah..she said she can't stand the weather.
then it'll be me and aisyah hanging out on our own.
tmr we shall be going auntie nora's place to bake cupcakes with the kids. then picking up aisyah's cousins from the airport.
sushi night on friday!! woohooo.. chef aisyah-san has some impressive plans man. she's so stressing out on the menu lah!
at the rate she's going you'd think she was gonna cook for some japanese ambassadors.
Monday is AUSTRALIA DAY!! weeeee.......
we plan to hang out in town to watch outdoor concerts, ship races and fireworks!
looking forward to hanging out with my sister from anothermutha! hehehhe
sorry aisyah you'll have to bear with me.

okay here's my nemo section. for those who don't know what nemo is... it's my new nickname that mum tassha and aisyah have bombarded me with. they call me nemo when im being EMO.
whatever.
i'm not emo.
i'm just in touch with my feelings.
ok ok fine i am.
jeevan calls me dramatic too.
can't help it LAH im indian.
so here goes, i need a nemo section in each post to talk bout my feelings.
orang panggil dia nemo u-ga-ma islam!
HAHAHHA! inside joke.

anyways...i loved the long conversations with jeevan yesterday over webcam and phone.
we talked bout everything but mostly where we are as a couple.
and he shared alot of his feelings, which is very rare.
much appreciated...and i just love you more for it.
i know things are kinda shaky after the whole new year's eve thing...
MR. ELEVEN!...
damn.
ok i shall try not to bring it up.
but right now...after everything we said yesterday,
i think i just could not bear to be with anyone else...
you're my rock.
to keep me positive, to cheer me up when my self esteem gets me down,
to be my personal motivator... and to calm me when i get dramatic.
and i'm your rock.
when your temper gets the better of you,
when you feel no one else has much hope in you..
when you need someone by your side to tell you it's all ok.

i could not ask for more.

back in sydney..hell yea.

okay aisyah here is your reading material.

okay maybe not much reading material cause pictures speak a thousand words.

waahha...now this...is what i call a jam packed sydney experience.


the day i left for sydney again with mum...

aisyah and family came to send us off and also bought for me goreng pisang from bedok! yumm....

sis and sunder

transiting at adelaide. that damn place hasnt changed a bit since the last time i saw it.

krispy kremes!

DFO shopping.

and me and aisyah rented a freaking car FINALLY!! i was nervous at first.. but once i got the hang of it..with aisyah as my GPS and following auntie nora's car... we were in for such fun!

first stop..Featherdale Wildlife Park! even Matt Damon and Pamela Anderson have been there..how could we have not?

and then straight on to the blue mountains...Wentworth Falls and Echo Point.

BBQ picnic at Lane Cove National Park. It's a DAMN gorgeous place with this long winding river...where you can row boats!! so me and aisyah and Mun(aisyah's annoying nephew) got on a rowboat. it was hilarious!! me and aisyah kept rowing in circles...
only when Mun took over we managed to get sumwhere.
but it was a damn funny sight to see two fat hippos on each end of the boat and a skinny guy in the middle rowing his life away. HAHA!

and a damn kookabura swooped in on my chicken as i was eating it. my damn lip was bleeding and swollen the whole day.

an iguana in front of our car. no no not the one in the white singlet. haha..

then we drove to MANLY!! it was damn gorgeous. there was this random newlywed taking photos.. i thought it was so romantic. oh well. we sat in this nice cafe overlooking the water and drank hot chocolate.. it was COLD. who said it was summer? haha..

on the way back we drove through the sydney harbour bridge! ....

next day to Fish Markets for lunch..where i got SHAT ON by a seagull. nevermind that. then we went to Centennial Park to feed the swans and ducks and parrots and pigeons! and ate ice cream too.

next day we returned the car...sob sob...and did a bit of shopping at Paramatta.. then me and mummy and auntie nora and kids went for lunch at a thai restaurant. Aisyah and Mun met up with their cousins at Bondi.

weeeeeeeeeee....
i had so much fun.

but mum left back to singapore yesterday...and when i got back.. and auntie nora went home, it hit me so hard that mum wasnt around anymore and i wouldnt be seeing her for another 6 months.


hope you had fun mum...miss you so much.

f**king new year.

okay i would blog about how i spent new year's eve cause all in all it would have been a fantastic night.
except it wasn't cause of something that happened.
i won't go into details.
in short, alcohol and jeevan mixed in a bad way
and you know what happens when people get drunk.
you either kill someone on the road, beat people up... or secrets get spilled.
and boy it was some secret that got spilled.
we kind of resolved it, but... my faith in men went even lower.
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.
i know it's in your past.
but it still bothers me that you never told me earlier.
cause it matters to me.
i can't pretend like it's all ok.
im trying to trust you.
but im leaving again tmr....and i cant help but be scared.
you know i'm insecure.
i still love you...
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i'm just hurt.