"The One I Love"

Gonna close my eyes Girl

and watch you go

Running through this life darling

Like a field of snow

As the tracer glides

In its graceful arc

Send a little prayer out to ya 'cross the falling dark

Tell the repo man

And the stars above

You're the one I love

Perfect summers night

Not a wind that breathes

Just the bullets whispering gentle 'mongst the new green leaves

There's things I might have said

Only wish I could

Now I'm leaking life faster

Then I'm leaking blood

Tell the repo man

And the stars above

You're the one I love

You're the one I love

The one I love

Don't see Elysium

Don't see no fiery hell

Just the lights up bright baby

In the bay hotel

Next wave coming in

Like an ocean roar

Won't you take my hand darling

On that old dancefloor

We can twist and shout

Do the turtle dove

And you're the one I love

You're the one I love

The one I love

emo-tioning

i used to think of PMS as just a lame ass excuse for bad behaviour

but now i realize just how potent it is!?!

(p.s potent is the new cool word in this house.) hahha..

it just causes a whole wave of negativity and despair and irritability...and the

worst part is i can't put a finger on what is it exactly that's making me goddamned upset!!

aaargh....

i just feel like bursting into tears and almost everything makes me

delve into a whole pity party and i start hating everything.

it gets hard to breathe and it feels like there's a

perpetual lump in my throat just waiting to burst out.

i'm so so sorry to all who had to to get the brunt of it...esp the beloved.

i'm just a sulky ass lah.

PMS just makes it worse.

thank you for always being so so patient..

maybe it's a manifestation of homesickness...

maybe.

maybe i just need to run back to where my support is.

it gets really trying here sometimes...

emotionally.

even through the little trials of the day...

it makes it so damn hard when you don't have your support to fall back on.

when you don't have the people, the things that remind you of what's good in life.

who remind you of your good points.

to hug you tight and kiss yr head and tell you it's all gonna be okay.

i'm on my own here.

.

i think i need to pray.

wow.

i've been in sydney for just over a month and ALOT have happened.

some good some REALLY bad some just plain funny.

for future juniors who would like to come over here and imagine a fun cushy life...

i'm sorry to disappoint you.

you've gotta have plain guts to survive here.

sydney really isn't a safe place AT ALL.

but of course it does have its good points...however you gotta

drop all your singaporean habits and be on yr guard always.

as a girl, i must say it's been scary but slowly i'm toughening up...

i've done quite alot of stuff here! went to the blue mountains and experienced falling snow for the

first time in my life!

been out till late, to experience a lil of the night life.(scary shit)

haha...

all in all..no harm done, dignity intact and slowly getting the hang of living australia.

i must say...

no worries mate.

s'all good.