emo-tioning

i used to think of PMS as just a lame ass excuse for bad behaviour

but now i realize just how potent it is!?!

(p.s potent is the new cool word in this house.) hahha..

it just causes a whole wave of negativity and despair and irritability...and the

worst part is i can't put a finger on what is it exactly that's making me goddamned upset!!

aaargh....

i just feel like bursting into tears and almost everything makes me

delve into a whole pity party and i start hating everything.

it gets hard to breathe and it feels like there's a

perpetual lump in my throat just waiting to burst out.

i'm so so sorry to all who had to to get the brunt of it...esp the beloved.

i'm just a sulky ass lah.

PMS just makes it worse.

thank you for always being so so patient..

maybe it's a manifestation of homesickness...

maybe.

maybe i just need to run back to where my support is.

it gets really trying here sometimes...

emotionally.

even through the little trials of the day...

it makes it so damn hard when you don't have your support to fall back on.

when you don't have the people, the things that remind you of what's good in life.

who remind you of your good points.

to hug you tight and kiss yr head and tell you it's all gonna be okay.

i'm on my own here.

.

i think i need to pray.