terrible terrible..

i'm so not feeling well. spent the day at home..feeling really lethargic and sleepy. sweetie sis and sunder bought for me bubble tea and oreo and waffle... felt kinda weird since yesterday but today i guess it all became worse. i'm still sneezing and sneezing from either cat fur or dust or something! to the point that my chest feels so damn congested and i sound like i have TB when i cough.

and my right heel and foot ached so much especially when i walk. and just now sis commented that my feet look swollen..and i didn't even realize it. mum got all worried and she suspects it's some circulation problem. the tingly feeling in my left hand just makes me feel i have some heart disease. oh well... we all gonna die someday. i just hate going to the doctors' so no, i'm not going.

yesterday was spent with jeevan, we went to AMK hub to replace his Ezlink card and then to watch quantum of solace..yaaaawn. i hate going for these "action packed" boring stuff...not to say i love romantic comedies cause half of em piss me off too. i wld much rather madagascar 2, but nooo he insisted on james bond. initially he was being such a sarcastic pig by debating between winx club, beverly hills chihuawa and madagascar...very funny.

then we went to eat at new york new york...food not that great. but at least it has root beer float!

then off he went back to camp...

it will be our first anniversary tomorrow.. not the date we got together tho, more like the day we met..but we just consider it our anniversary cause i swear i don't remember when he proposed..haha..and to top it all off i said yes and then no the following day... and yes again a few days later. i can't help it. i have issues.

but anyways..happy anniversary dear, thanks for a wonderful year. you've been a loyal, loving, supportive boyfriend who's been nothing but gentle and protective.

i appreciate how you never use harsh words with me and how patient you are amidst my tantrums and bad temper. considering what a short fuse you have as well ( yr broken nose and displaced jaw will vouch for that) i am amazed at what a gentle lil puppy you are with me.

i know this relationship has every chance of working out or not, to have its screw ups or amazing moments or ending in happily ever after or not... but for what it's worth..i'm willing to try and see it through.

happy anniversary.

ta-da!

i'm finally back in singapore! the plan to surprise jeevan went absolutely perfect. i changed my flight to one a week earlier than expected and made my way to his place this morning. the look on his face was priceless... made the weeks of trying to keep my mouth shut worth it.

my first night in singapore after 5 months away was weird.. i looked around my room and it was so surreal. i guess i got so used to my place in sydney.

i finally got to kiss my kitties!!

the kittens have become so huge. i bought the three boys collars and they look so cute in em, tho comot did his share of squirming for a while after i put it on.

i shall be spending this month helping my mum do some hardcore housework. mum has been busy with work and usually i'm the one who does stuffs like cleaning and bathing the cats. since i've been away the cats have not had a bath..but they still r utterly adorable. i spent the whole night kissing ang hugging them. and i woke up at like 6 am and found the two kittens on my bed...they miss me too!

mum says dad misses me..tho i dont see it. the first thing he said to me wen i met them at the airport was 'you put on weight!!".. dammit.

and the first thing my mum said was "why you become so dark?!"...

i just can't win. oh well. i am fat and ugly anyways.

i took the A380 for my flight..honestly no big deal. it feels the same as any other airplane. i didnt even watch any movies, wasn't really in the mood. the food sucked too. Singapore airlines never fails to serve bad food i tell you.

aisyah took qantas, hope she had a better experience.

it's raining now, i miss these tropical thunderstorms.. the storms in sydney are scary. the winds are very strong, you're better off not carrying an umbrella cause it's just gonna get destroyed.

but i miss the dryness. the humidity is horrible. the first thing i did in singapore was sweat. aaargh.

okay time to think bout what i wanna eat. KFC!!

height of euphoria

this is IT!! exams are OVER!! and that ladies and gentlemen..was semester one. after the double whammy of digital imaging and specialised rad 2 days in a row..the torture is over!
i am like so damn excited... me aisyah and syaz went to Paddy's today to shop.. bought quite alot of stuffs! we still have destinations DFO, Parammatta and maybe Auburn.. wohoooo!!
all in all...semester one was not very eventful. going for lectures Monday to Thursdays..or not. haha....doing assignments together.. taking our 3 hour breaks from studying at the staircase landing talking bout nothing at all...and towards the end we even studied together in my room. not so much to discuss but i guess we all felt vulnerable and stressed out, and we needed to be close to each other to at least feel we weren't alone in the fight.
syaz and tassha still have another paper on wednesday, good luck to them. i shall miss the girls when i'm back in singapore. after 5 months of thick and thin and stupid, i must say i've grown fond of them. they are like the sisters i didn't ask for. haha...
right now. this very moment. i just feel so damn blessed. thank you God for this wonderful wonderful experience. there are so many lil things and ways in which ive changed since coming here...and i would not give it up for anything. friends i've made here i'll always remember.. like the yanny girls azi, sobia and pauline...the tuesday soccer mates like louis, monika patel, asaf, ashish, andrew, antonia, bec...i'll miss em all!
okay why do i sound like i'm not coming back!?

through the headaches, the diarrhea, the procrastination, the RAISINS!! haha... i've made it. i have made it through and i'm so damn proud of myself. i deserve the best goddamn summer vacation there is and it's gonna start with a shit load of shopping. i swear. i need CLOTHES!!

singapore...i'm coming baaack!

haunted.

there have been alot of strange happenings in this house..and they have all been hard to explain other than the possibility that there is some kind of spirit creating mischief.
and it isnt just one of us experiencing it.. every one of us have had some kind of creepy encounter.
for one thing, anyone in the laundry room, esp aisyah, will feel very uneasy like there's someone watching her. i get that feeling when i'm in the kitchen and i swear there's someone at the staircase watching me.
of course the theory goes that it's a brand new house..so how can it be haunted right? but i don't know...
aisyah has heard a disembodied voice coming from her laptop asking if she was online... she thought it was me sending a voice clip on msn only to see that i was offline and there was no such clip.
and it's funny that those exact words "are you online," was what aisyah blurted out in my room when she woke up..but had no recollection of saying it. i have NO idea why the hell she would have said such a thing to me considering i was sitting there in front of her.
tsh has experienced her share of missing objects only to find em reappearing in places she already checked.
and me?
last night was SCARY.
i swear as i was about to sleep, and all my lights were off i heard Aisyah outside my door. It was so loud and clear that she was outside my door saying something but i could not catch wat it was. So i waited for the door to open or something..but nothing. And it was pitch black outside my door.
And as i was about to fall asleep...i heard Syaz give a blood curling scream. Only to find out... it wasn't syaz. or anyone in the house for that matter. But i SWEAR it came from in the house. and it really sounded like syaz. when i heard it i was already curled up in bed. so i just waited for some commotion to happen, maybe aisyah or tassha's voices or SOMETHING. but nothing. it was like it never happened. but i swear i heard it.
i woke up asking everyone bout the two things i heard yest night..but no one else heard it and i can't account for it. funny thing is tassha was awake the whole night and didnt hear anything.
i am creeped out.
it doesnt feel malicious or anything but STILL.

okay back to studying.

if i had only one wish..

it would be that animal abuse would cease to exist..

i just cannot take it, when i hear reports of animals being abused and killed. what could a defenceless kitten have done to make one torture it to death? it breaks my heart thinking how an animal trusts a human to feed it or comfort it, and is greeted with violence instead.
i wish i had the guts to face these cases head on and be actively involved..but even i can't bear to see it.i guess it's a different thing if i do have any control over it, like i see it actively happening. God forbid that happens cause trust me..somebody will get hurt. I have no qualms bout hitting an animal abuser straight at his balls.
Until then..all i can do is make a silent prayer every night that God helps me keep as many animals safe as possible. ..They don't deserve to die like that.
i just wanna hug my cats right now. i remember when i found my kittens at Yishun.. a part of me wanted to just leave em with their mother, cause that's the right thing to do..
but i couldn't risk walking away thinking bout all the stuff crazy ppl would do to them. and to top it off their mum was such a docile friendly cat...would have helped if she was fierce and protective.

and you know what, i think i made the right decision.

and it goes for all the cats i have rescued... they are in a safe loving home, and it's 4 less cats alone and abused out there...

dee gee taalll hellll...

i am so utterly stressed out. digital imaging exam is really getting to all of us. we have to write four 20 mark essays for the exam, in addition to the mcqs...it's one thing to grasp the concepts enough to be able to identify which histogram belongs to which image...but to EXPLAIN the concepts in TWO PAGES!?!
and don't get me started on fourier transforms...whimper whimper*
i just wanna get this over and done with. the stress is killing me!
we are not even going out to get fresh air..just cooped up at home, in these four walls...making sense of notes.
as a result i've not been eating well, throwing up every now and then and taking comfort in my usual activity my housemates are probably getting annoyed with. shall not say it.
can't wait for the 14th!!! last paper. yay yay.. then it's 3 whole months of enjoyment...going back to singapore on the 28th! ya it's not a secret anymore. the whole plan was to keep it from Jeevan so that i can surprise him when he books out. But the bugger pretty much threatened my life to know the exact date. haha... hmm..probably so that he can make sure i don't catch him red handed with his other girlfriends. the way he can't throw a surprise visit on me in case he catches me with my other boyfriends here. hehehehe...
oh well still love you the mostest darling! can't wait to see you!
miss the bear hugs, kisses and CHAPATTIS dat yr mum makes!!! aaaaaaaargh!! actually ah.. miss his mum alot. she really is the sweetest thing. i miss watching hindi soaps and movies with her, eating kacang. and whining until jeevan bought us both mangosteens cause we were craving for it. evil laugh* poor jeevan... i actually felt jealous lah when i found out she went deepavali shopping with Nisa(jeevan's younger bro's gf) and bought her bangles too!!! and they went to see shahrukh khan too!!! aaaaaaaaaaaargh! and jeevan just laughed at me when i told him bout it,saying it's my fault for being ten thousand miles away. humph.
okay i gotta stop reminiscing. back to my reality of sitting on my bed amidst a stack of notes that i don't understand, using tassha's teddy as a laptop rest. wahah..
aisyah is probably downstairs studying while listening to jay chou..
syaz studying and listening to her ipod..
tassha...eating raisins.
wait.
im eating raisins too.

OH MY GOD WE NEED A LIFE.
press on dewy presss on!! just one more week. gosh i hope i can do this.