if i were like you..

Pull up your pants

(Just Like Em')

Take out the trash

(Just Like Em')

getting ya cash like em'

Fast like em'

Girl you outta act like ya dig

(What I'm talkin' bout')

Security codes on everything

Vibrate so your phone don't ever ring

Joint Account

And another one he don't know about

Wish we could switch up the roles

And I could be that...

Tell you I love you

But when you call I never get back

Would you ask them questions like me?...

Like where you be at?
Cause I'm out 4 in the morning
On the corner rolling
Doing my own thing

What if I?...

Had a thing on the side?

Made ya cry?

Would the rules change up?...

Or would they still apply?...

If I played you like a toy?...

Sometimes I wish I could act like a boy

Can't be getting mad!

What You Mad?

Can't Handle that

Girl go head and be...

Just Like Em'

Go run the streets

Just Like Em'

come home late say sleep like em'

Creep like em'

Front with ya friends

Act hard when you're with em' like em'

Keep a straight face when ya tell a lie

Always keep an Anti-alibi

Keep Him In The Dark

What he don't know won't break his heart....

sigh.

Hello...
Can you hear me
Am I getting through to you

Hello...
Is it late there
Is there laughter on the line
Are you sure youre there alone

Cuz im
Trying to explain
Somethings wrong
You just dont sound the same

Why dont you
Why dont you
Go outside
Go outside

Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever Im gone too long
If your lips feel lonely and thirsty
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
Were under the same sky
And the nights
As empty for me as for you
If you feel
You cant wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain

Hello...
Do you miss me
I hear you say you do
But not the way Im missing you

Whats new
Hows the weather
Is it stormy where you are
You sound so close but it feels like youre so far
Oh would it mean anything
If you knew
What Im left imagining
In my mind
My mind
Would you go
Would you go

Kiss the rain

As you fall
Over me
Think of me
Think of me
Think of me
Only me
Kiss the rain
Whenever you need me
Kiss the rain
Whenever Im gone too long
If your lips
Feel hungry and tempted
Kiss the rain
And wait for the dawn
Keep in mind
Were under the same sky
And the nights
As empty for me as for you
If you feel you cant wait till morning
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain
Kiss the rain

Kiss the rain

another bird-day.

in three hours itll be syaz's birthday!
happy 23rd!
don't worry, even if tmr will be lacklustre,
you'll be going back singapore soon to all your loved ones
who'll show you the time of your life!

today i had a bad bad bad lesson to learn.
eurgh.
in short it involves National Australia Bank, over-drawing,
and fees. ARGH!!
i'm crossing my fingers hoping that there will be no additional fees to pay in the coming days.
blardie hell.
think of all the things i had to forgo to SAVE THAT MONEY!!
and poof. like dat its gone.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr.....

top it all off i had a bad fight with Jeevs yesterday.
screamed and cried my arse off cause he managed to get me so so worked up.
i just could not take it anymore.
i can only have so much patience before it all blows up
and trust me, even i'm ashamed to admit it,
when i get upset..
it gets very ugly.
i think it's some anger management issue.
poor aisyah and tassha who had to hear my screaming.
apologies. i do try to be more refined.
hahha...but when it blows..it blows.

and despite it all.
tho i am still kinda mad.
i must say, he's a very patient guy.
i think if i were him i would have slammed down the phone or something.
he just sat through it all apologizing..
which i deserved by the way.
let's see how things go.
i hope he finally realizes and changes a bit..
i can only HOPE.

so all in all....it's been BAAAAD couple of days.
please please let my luck turn around.
i just need these last 10 weeks to be as peaceful as possible.
so i can finish up nicely, and go back to singapore happy.
PLEASE.no more screw ups.

may day may day

it's May! FINALLY. thought the month would never come.
this semester has proven to be so damn slack.
i'm hardly doing any work! most assignments are done, only one left.
3 papers to sit for come end of this month.
and nevermind if i have heaps of money to spare to spend my free time on random shopping or eating out..i don't.
so seriously, im sitting at home rotting.
the girls have been going out quite a fair bit, mostly with their new friends.
or playing taiti..
so ya.
shrugs.

hopefully exams and clinicals will be a breeze..i shall be moving out of this house early june.
thanks to uber wonderful friends, who have gladly offered me places to stay
sobia and azi, rachel..love u girls so so much.
so it's now time to start packing my stuff and shipping em home.
wow.
can't believe it's coming to an end, 1 year is relli just..zooom.
i have the option of pursuing my honours..for freeeee...but with much thought and deliberation..
i decided against it.
i wanna get started with life.
work..money...travelling..all that jazz.
got bigger plans than just doing radiography my whole life.
and of course.
gotta start thinking bout the big M word.
marriage.
23 this year already man, for girls..that's old.
don't wanna be a tired old mum chasing after kids..
hopefully wanna have my first kid by 25,26?

god willing, i shall make good decisions and do the right thing.
life has been blissfully blessed so far, only hope it goes on that way.

on a sidenote...have much anticipated packages arriving soon!! can't wait!
weeeeeeeeeeeeee.........

let go

i had a dream about you last night.
you looked so happy.
and told me you had found someone.
i even remember her name.

i don't know if i can ever stop feeling sad
when i think about you.
maybe cause you knew me all too well.
i lost the only best friend i ever had.

but i guess the dream came to tell me it was time.
i have to stop.
and learn to let go.
i can't love everyone.

or like you said..
you can't have it all.

best vacation ever.

just got back from an impulse trip to adelaide!
just lying in bed one night on a boring tuesday...
when it dawned on me...
what's there stopping me from going on a trip right there and then?
so i did!
thanks to my saviour rachel, who drove all the way to my place at 5am send me to the airport!
love u girl..

anyways..
i went, had the best time ever, made great new friends...
and i regret nothing.
true it set me back financially, raised a few eyebrows, made me have a bad bout of early morning sickness( no im not pregnant, i'm just born with morning sickness. make me do anything early like TRAVELLING and im a goner.)
but it was all worth it.
owe it all to my cousin and her housemates and friends, who were all so welcoming and friendly even though i came so suddenly and pretty much unannounced.
went around the wineries, to the lovely Hahndorf, the international rugby sevens, various yummy restaurants, shopping in town, central market and the beach too.
had pretty meaningful conversations with my cousin's housemate's boyfriend Clyde, which made me think looong and hard bout my future.
coming from a 30 yr old guy, who made it for himself in australia..
i would say it's all good advice.
and if nothing else...
the whole trip , plus my stay here so far in sydney,
made me realize my direction and what i want for sure.
i wanna live here in australia, and have my kids grow up here.
i want them to have space, to appreciate nature, to have countless opportunites to pursue their dreams...
and i wanna grow old in a country where i can own my own home, an actual house, not a bloody flat.
travel around, and being able to afford the little pleasures in life.
life in singapore isn't living, it's mere hand to mouth existence unless you've been blessed with super money-saving powers, rich parents, or plain good luck.
most of us get by on an ordinary existence.
and no offense to people who choose singapore's comforts and stability...
i just know it's not for me.

so i shall go back, give back to the community that have given me the privilege of the scholarship by working my bond off...
then i'm coming back.
where i know, ever since i was a kid...
i belong.

something in the water

what is UP with everyone these days!?
it's one after another isn't it?
seems like i'm getting more than my fair share of snide remarks
and bitchy snaps.
twiddling twiddling..
bah.

okay stay positive, stay positive.
breaaaathe.
you're happy,you're complete, you've everything to smile about.
you won't let anything or anyone affect you.
peeeeeeeeeeaaace.......
bleurgh.

i should just shut down this blog.no one reads it anyways.hmm.