the great divide

assignments are all over!! all that's left are a couple of weeks of school and then exams and im done for semester one!! can u believe it..how time flies.. i can't wait to go home, though of course i'd much rather have had all the cash in the world to go travelling around australia or even Fiji! but no worries, i'll still be going on a roadtrip to brisbane and melbourne with the gang in february. hopefully mum comes down to sydney in january so i can show her around too..my hands are itching to rent a car and drive around.

life here in guildford is pretty much normal..feels like home. though of course with every household there are it's squabbles and tension. just have to learn to deal. through it all im grateful to have great friends around, especially aisyah, who's practically like a young version of my mum. so maybe that's why i don't really miss home.

i bought a book last week called 'Don't be Sad', and it truly is enlightening. Using the concepts of Islam, it talks bout life in general and why we should be positive. Being a pessimistic, grumpy, bad tempered person with a super low self esteem, who is always worrying about money... i think i need the book. so far so good... loads of practical advice that i've already put into good use! especially when it comes to dealing with strange people... there are the ungrateful, the bossy, the calculative, the selfish, the unco-operative, the multi-faceted, the liars, etc etc ppl in this world...including myself at times, so i guess we all just need to learn to cast aside the bad and deal with the good.

though it does get on my nerves at times. hahhaa... why can't people just... aiyah donnolah. everyone has their idiosyncracies. is that how u spell it? haha.. main thing is..at the crux of it all, i'm happy with myself. I may not be competitive, i may not have much looks, i may not have a great sense of willpower and self... but i'm pretty much honest with myself and the people around me.really am an open book. most may call it my weakness, cause at times people use what they know about me, against me. but i don't deny what's there, i don't try to be somebody else, what you see is what you get. I may not please everyone, but the people i love are pleased with me.the real me.

and for that i'm grateful. thank you God.