f**king new year.

okay i would blog about how i spent new year's eve cause all in all it would have been a fantastic night.
except it wasn't cause of something that happened.
i won't go into details.
in short, alcohol and jeevan mixed in a bad way
and you know what happens when people get drunk.
you either kill someone on the road, beat people up... or secrets get spilled.
and boy it was some secret that got spilled.
we kind of resolved it, but... my faith in men went even lower.
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i know it's in your past.
but it still bothers me that you never told me earlier.
cause it matters to me.
i can't pretend like it's all ok.
im trying to trust you.
but im leaving again tmr....and i cant help but be scared.
you know i'm insecure.
i still love you...
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i'm just hurt.