something in the water

what is UP with everyone these days!?
it's one after another isn't it?
seems like i'm getting more than my fair share of snide remarks
and bitchy snaps.
twiddling twiddling..
bah.

okay stay positive, stay positive.
breaaaathe.
you're happy,you're complete, you've everything to smile about.
you won't let anything or anyone affect you.
peeeeeeeeeeaaace.......
bleurgh.

i should just shut down this blog.no one reads it anyways.hmm.

indie-pendent.

people chide me for it. saying the women should be pampered,
and not do the pampering.
finally.
there's a song that sums up exactly why they're wrong
and exactly why you love me.
; )




I love her cause she got her own
She don't need mine, so she leave mine alone
There ain't nothing that's more sexy
Than a girl that want but don't need me
Young independent, yea she work hard
But you can tell from the way that she walk
She don't slow down cause she ain't got time
To be complaining, shawty gon shine
She don't expect nothing from no guy
She plays agressive, but she still shy
But you never know her softer side
By lookin in her eyes
Knowing she can do for herself
Makes me wanna give her my world

Only kinda girl I want
Independent queen workin for her throne
I love her cause she got her own
She got her own
I love her cause she got her own
She got her own
I love it when she say
It's cool I got it, I got it, I got it
I love it when she say
It's cool I got it, I got it, I got it

I love it cause she got her own
She don't need mine, so she leave mine alone
There ain't nothin that's more sexy
Than a girl that want, but don't need me Lovely face
Nice thick thighs
Plus she got drive that matches my drive
Sexy Thang
She's mcfly
All the while payin' the bills on time.
She don't look at me like Captain save 'em
Gold Diggin, no she don't do that
Now she lookin me like inspiration
She wanna be complimentin' my swag
And everything she got,
she work for it, good life made for it
She take pride in sayin' that she paid for it...

birday.

okay let's see.

firstly, congrats to jeevs for being sergeant of the company he came from! cougar!
seems like yesterday i got dragged out of bed at 6am by you to send you off to tekong.
and then to your bmtc pop.
i am happy for you, i just am too stoic most times to show a reaction when you talk
bout army stuff.
but bummer that you are not booking out this weekend!
when i told aisyah this, she was like oh shit. you'e gonna be bored and disturb me.
see? i DO enjoy our weekend conversations on webcam.
i really don't understand why you always pick a fight with me
cause apparently i don't sound happy, or look happy enough
when i talk to you or see you.
bollocks.
but that aside....hehhe....thanks for punching that guy in the face for suggesting you should "explore side dishes" since i'm far away.
awww how chivalrous. cho chweet.

most importantly....HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISHIIIII!!!
you're 23 now, you cockface.
hahhaha!!
aisyah has been such a blurcock these days, i shall not go into details
cause it's just too hilarious....
that rachel has coined her the nickname Cockface.
hehe...
may you have loads of happy happy days ahead,
right by my side.
in school
in uni
and now work.
hahahha....
i'm never LEAVING YOU!! MUAHAH!
went to Jaipur restaurant with her, hudaloo and rach, to have a pre birthday celebration.
such fun.
we were doing such crazy stuff.

but most importantly...hope you enjoy today's gift from us to you....
we got aisyah's panties in such a twist, keeping her in suspense bout tonight.
you shall find out soon enough, my padawan.








tassha's aunt and family are leaving this sat for Cairo!!
we shall miss you.
went to her temporary swanky serviced apartment in town to hang out and take the kids swimming!
shall miss the kids, especially the grumpy puss Amal.
that aside, the whole issue bugging me last week has been kinda resolved.
oh well.
i still don't really believe anyone right now, who said what or not.
i just know i kinda lost trust in people.
but life goes on.

oh damn. my phone is ringing.
this photography studio is having this offer of a free makeover and photoshoot on some gorgeous location and stuffs...and yea that part is free.
but as i found out, the photos will cost 295.
yikes.
i would if i had loads of moolah.
but no.
and i don't feel like picking up the phone and explaining that it's just too expensive.
meh.

i love lily.

Shattered the lie but you think I don't already know,
Don't try to deny 'cause my fuse is ready to blow
Its your turn to learn.. I think that you know where to go
It's a shame, shame, shame for you
Please don't come around and knock on my door

'cause I don't want to have to pick you up of the floor....
-Lily Allen

revelation

wow. amazing how each day brings new surprises.
i found out something today, that got me shocked at first..
but now that i think about it. why am i surprised?
you prolly do it to every single damn person.
smile.
be sweet.
be so concerned and helpful.
and then..
gossip.
bitch.
bitch somemore.
every story there is to be told, has to go through you.
everything and anything to do with anyone, you HAVE to know and it sits there in yr head like a fungating sponge ready to be released to the next eager listening ear.
guess that's what makes you so in the know.
of course till the day it all comes back to you..
and people realize they've got this lil knife sticking out of their backs courtesy of you.
and then we'll watch the fun.
cause on my part, i seriously learnt my lesson.
and no way in hell will i ever get personal with you again.

when i'm angry with someone i show em im angry.
and if i have issues with someone, i don't talk and bitch about it to people who do not need to know.
you go around putting up a front of being a fantastic buddy and then go to others who prolly don't even FUCKING know me..and go...eurgh i can't STAND dewi!! etc etc...
and you know what. i AM the better person cause i don't see the need in me right now to tell ANYONE bout what you've been doing.
i don't find solace in people agreeing with me and being on my side.
i am perfectly alright with not confronting you cause at the end of it you keep in mind you're on the losing end.
you will lose trust and respect wherever you go.
i lost nothing but a friend i didn't need.
it's sad it's come to this, but i really do not want someone who pretends to be my jolly friend
and then fucks me up behind my back.
the only thing you should be praying for is to learn to shut your mouth and keep your nose out of things that do not concern you.
it's for your own good.
cause seriously someday you WILL be bitchslapped.
and you're lucky it didnt come from me.

but who knows.
i might just do you the favour.
don't.
fucking.
mess with me.

it's all new.

summer vacation is over.
roadtrip is over.
school started this week.
it'll be way too much for me to write bout the entire roadtrip,
the photos in facebook should suffice.
i went skydiving a few days back.
a.ma.zing.
puts things in perspective, when you jump off a plane at 14000 feet.
honestly, i was only actually frightened for a few seconds.
the whole thing was just way too amazing to actually be afraid.
it felt like one of those dreams where you keep falling.

i got my clinical posting, im posted to Five Dock. somewhere near Sydney city. not too bad actually.
still toying with the idea of going out of NSW...but right now
there's a bigger idea that's just gnawing at me.
especially since recent bouts of bitchiness that i've faced.
i've come to see the ugly side of people.
i've become so fed up actually.
that i think it's turning me into a one cold bitch.
because honestly, if no one will appeciate the sacrifices you make...
then there's nothing that should stop you from doing your own damn thing
and not giving a flying fuck what consequences others may face.

hence ive been indulging in being alone these past days..
i am thoroughly enjoying it.
i cancelled all plans i have, declined all invitations.
and just spending time in my room studying or just listening to lily allen.

pick your battles they say.
hell yea i chose mine.