surrender.

i give up the fight. totally give up.

today i'm going to the doctor to start on the pills again.

yea yea i know, side effects etc etc.

but i have no choice.

it's one thing to accept who you are and try and live with it.

i can't.

so i'll never stop until i change how i look.

that aside, it's 8 freaking days to departure.

all i've done is to take my bags and clean em of cat fur

and put em by the corner for me to admire.

all empty of course.

going shopping for clothes with mum and Syaz today.

first time in days that i' m stepping out.

don't have the fun popular life like my other friends...

oh well.

story of my life.

time to dig around for happiness.again.