i am right now sitting downstairs at the dining table, with my lappie.
didnt occur to me that i could hang out anywhere with my comp. haha..
okay that was a random thought. ignore it.
anyways, mum and i were looking through the stupid adverts that they have on warna?! like essentially yours and herba crap or another. mum wants to buy me yet another slimming product.
sigh.
i have no objections cause face it, i do wanna be slimmer.
but. it does frustrate me sometimes.
i stop and think of it, and i realize...i don't eat anymore than the average person.
it's not like im sitting in one corner with ten plates of fried chicken or something.
in fact i usually cannot finish the usual servings when i eat out.
yesterday i went to meet jeevan at IMM cause he had night's out. we had dinner
at swensens and i could hardly finish my fish and chips. by then end of it i seriously needed to puke.
and i wake up each morning feeling quite..bleurgh. i'm not hungry at all.
i eventually just eat something during lunch time and it lasts me till night. then ill nibble on something else at night and that's it.
so i do NOT understand why i'm fat.
but if there's some miracle pill out there that can make me feel better then i'll take it.
but on the bright side! i am losing the weight i gained back in sydney.
my tummy isnt so damn huge anymore.
but i guess it has helped, that jeevan has not stopped loving everything bout me despite my horrid weight gain.
which is exactly why i'm trying to lose the weight. cause i think he deserves a hot girlfriend for being so patient with his now un-hot girlfriend. haha..
i miss him alot these days maybe cause i know im leaving again for 7 months this time.
anything can happen.
didnt help that his ex girlfriend called recently, OBVIOUSLY wanting a reconcilation.
sigh. so who knows.
while i'm away the cat might play.
though if he hears this i'll get a hell of a nagging for not trusting him enough.
it's not that i dont trust him..i just don't trust men. they are such volatile creatures with weird and sudden personality changes.
one minute you're the centre of their universe, the next they're taking out their bad moods on you and suddenly the hot lovable gorgeous perfect girlfriend becomes a deadweight they wanna lose. like guy ritchie and madonna. so many so called perfect couples are splitting up.
madonna and guy. shania twain and her hubby (NOOOO...) and now rumour has it even jennifer lopez and mark anthony. if that GORGEOUS woman who just bore her husband perfect twins has marriage problems..what luck do i have in keeping my man?!! haha...
anyways. the issue of kids came up yesterday during dinner cause there were a bunch of noisy boisterous kids next to us..and i just blurted out that i hated kids. its true anyways.
and jeevan was like what excuse me?
and so he has this huge problem with me hating kids cause he wants to have a billion probably.
eurgh.
and he said couldn't you even pretend to like kids?
whaaa!?
NO.
i will not pretend that i do NOT prefer the companionship of lovely animals like cats and dogs to that of noisy, obnoxious, rude, NOISY, kids!!
who just grow up to be fucked up adults like all of us ANYWAYS.
fine i will eventually procreate cause it's all heartwarming and shit..but to entertain the antics of kids? no way. you can find me being the kind of mummy sitting curled up in a chair with my cats and a good book and just ignoring my kid whos screaming for attention.
muahaha...
let my husband do it.
anyways.
jeevan concluded that we both have alot of growing up to do before we can venture into that thing called marriage and kids.
like as if " growing up" will suddenly make me all loving towards kids.
oh whatever. where's my cat. i need some furry hugs and kisses.
didnt occur to me that i could hang out anywhere with my comp. haha..
okay that was a random thought. ignore it.
anyways, mum and i were looking through the stupid adverts that they have on warna?! like essentially yours and herba crap or another. mum wants to buy me yet another slimming product.
sigh.
i have no objections cause face it, i do wanna be slimmer.
but. it does frustrate me sometimes.
i stop and think of it, and i realize...i don't eat anymore than the average person.
it's not like im sitting in one corner with ten plates of fried chicken or something.
in fact i usually cannot finish the usual servings when i eat out.
yesterday i went to meet jeevan at IMM cause he had night's out. we had dinner
at swensens and i could hardly finish my fish and chips. by then end of it i seriously needed to puke.
and i wake up each morning feeling quite..bleurgh. i'm not hungry at all.
i eventually just eat something during lunch time and it lasts me till night. then ill nibble on something else at night and that's it.
so i do NOT understand why i'm fat.
but if there's some miracle pill out there that can make me feel better then i'll take it.
but on the bright side! i am losing the weight i gained back in sydney.
my tummy isnt so damn huge anymore.
but i guess it has helped, that jeevan has not stopped loving everything bout me despite my horrid weight gain.
which is exactly why i'm trying to lose the weight. cause i think he deserves a hot girlfriend for being so patient with his now un-hot girlfriend. haha..
i miss him alot these days maybe cause i know im leaving again for 7 months this time.
anything can happen.
didnt help that his ex girlfriend called recently, OBVIOUSLY wanting a reconcilation.
sigh. so who knows.
while i'm away the cat might play.
though if he hears this i'll get a hell of a nagging for not trusting him enough.
it's not that i dont trust him..i just don't trust men. they are such volatile creatures with weird and sudden personality changes.
one minute you're the centre of their universe, the next they're taking out their bad moods on you and suddenly the hot lovable gorgeous perfect girlfriend becomes a deadweight they wanna lose. like guy ritchie and madonna. so many so called perfect couples are splitting up.
madonna and guy. shania twain and her hubby (NOOOO...) and now rumour has it even jennifer lopez and mark anthony. if that GORGEOUS woman who just bore her husband perfect twins has marriage problems..what luck do i have in keeping my man?!! haha...
anyways. the issue of kids came up yesterday during dinner cause there were a bunch of noisy boisterous kids next to us..and i just blurted out that i hated kids. its true anyways.
and jeevan was like what excuse me?
and so he has this huge problem with me hating kids cause he wants to have a billion probably.
eurgh.
and he said couldn't you even pretend to like kids?
whaaa!?
NO.
i will not pretend that i do NOT prefer the companionship of lovely animals like cats and dogs to that of noisy, obnoxious, rude, NOISY, kids!!
who just grow up to be fucked up adults like all of us ANYWAYS.
fine i will eventually procreate cause it's all heartwarming and shit..but to entertain the antics of kids? no way. you can find me being the kind of mummy sitting curled up in a chair with my cats and a good book and just ignoring my kid whos screaming for attention.
muahaha...
let my husband do it.
anyways.
jeevan concluded that we both have alot of growing up to do before we can venture into that thing called marriage and kids.
like as if " growing up" will suddenly make me all loving towards kids.
oh whatever. where's my cat. i need some furry hugs and kisses.
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